Who are you? Where are you going? Who are you going with? — Sam Keen
Many of us have books that have inspired us, taught us or are just like good friends. I have so many books that have touched my life, the quote above being from “Fire in the Belly”, a book I read when I was working on my father issues, and set an intention to learn how to be a good friend and to have good friends of both sexes, but specifically other men. I pondered those questions of who was I, where was I going and who was I going with, and that helped me so much in healing my “competition” addictions, and learn how to love my brothers. The brotherly love is so important to me, and I am grateful I have a few of these precious people in my life.
As I grow older and approach the “forth ridge of life” the unborn and newborn – gold gate, I begin to search within for what is of deep value to me. Continue reading “Who Are You? Where Are You Going?”
Jasmine and I picked Mandi Sunday evening from her trip to London, and she had a good visit with her children and grandchildren. I certainly have missed her, as I have been the chief cook and bottle washer around here. it is wonderful to have her back from England! Thank you Joanna, Bob and Martha and Ted and to all who have helped me through my severe neck pain and offered help while Mandi was away! 
We are coming up to the Spring Equinox, and I have been recovering form a severe pain in my neck, which has forced me to slow down. I joked in my meditation group Sunday night that my pain in the neck (Jasmine) was meeting me here at 6:30, as if my pain were created by Jasmine. Pain is a signal, so rather than smashing the pain with “pain killers”, I listened to the voices in my own head, and was able to detach from the committee, and focus back on my breath, and still my “mad monkey” mind. Today my range of movement is expanded. 
I once heard that your vision has to be bigger than you are. When we ease our television time and focus as the eagle on our own visions, the ascension happens. As we move toward the light of the Spring Equinox, we honor the direction of the eagle in the east. The story of the firebird is told in many cultures – the great bird that all other birds see as creator. 
A lot of my fellow 12 step travelers on the happy road to destiny come to embody the wisdom taught by the simple laws of confession, restitution and service. In preparing for Spring Equinox ceremony, it is good to go within for soul searching and do an honest appraisal of our strengths and weaknesses, and do the reparation work of listing all of the people who we have harmed (beginning with me) and became willing to make amends. Notice daily our mind talk and to correct our course when off course. I aspire to live in a way that does not create new wreckage. Restitution is for the soul, and restores us to sanity or balance. This is walking my talk. 
WE ALL JOURNEYED DOWN TO THE CONVENTION CENTER ON NEW YEARS EVE FOR N.A.R.A.’S ANNUAL SOBRIETY POW WOW. THIS WAS JASMINES FIRST EXPOSURE TO THE POW WOW AND THE DRUM
This has been a “weird” week -computers won’t work, equipment breaking down and in spite of that, business is great and off to a great start as far as abundance flowing with ease and grace. There is much to do to keep current on our orders, and both Mandi and I are working day and night to get the ship of CMD back on course. Grace is a gift from the spirit world as is mercy, so this is the time to deeply connect with our values, ethics and ways to be. 
Authentic love springs forth from the well of self love. We take loving care of what we hold as sacred. Taking care, tending to and watching over to keep out of harms way and making that begin with me….inside-out. I begin with myself.